It’s weird how instantaneous circumstances can change the course of man.

Earlier this week on Tuesday, I confronted my gaffer and tendered my resignation with a 30-day’s notice. The strange thing is that I already had printed my resignation letter and was ready to hand it in the previous Friday. Coincidentally, I experienced an emotional breakdown at reading God’s Word during work and being stirred by a devotional article – all in the same Friday morning that prompted me to let go and move on.

I had the strange emotional breakdown when I hid myself in the gent’s toilet and I broke down for a solid 10-15 minutes. I was surprised that nobody came in during this period – which I found very unusual, but it did allow me to let it out – which admittedly has been a momentous build-up of many months.

The final ultimatum was when I sat through a late Friday afternoon meeting before ‘experienced’ individuals from the wider IT department. Not one person in a room of 10 was able to call a single shot and make a bleeding decision. Seemingly, this project has been bouncing back for a whole year.

Public sector! Sheesh!!

What a ruddy waste of taxpayer’s money, especially when you are surrounded by complete and utter fruit baskets who refuse to take ANY responsibility and dealing with teams and individuals who can’t make a decision. Never mind, that we are ALL due to receive fancy Microsoft Surface Pro tablets, as we sit on £500-£600 chairs from Herman Miller.

Why should I be the fall-guy for someone’s incompetence?

I don’t swear, but seriously – STUFF THAT!!

Fair play, I walk away from a £25k salary and a stupendous life assurance pay out, which is the equivalent to my parent’s house (that I won’t see anyway), but I want to redeem my health over the long term. Since 2009, I am fairly sensitive with regards to my health, so I need to take care.

Despite my beachcomber stint in looking for alternative roles over the past several months, I realise that I’m disadvantaged in various sane roles – some of which involve programming – something that I’ve lately been returning to this year during my time of annual leave, but cannot sustain the study momentum, whilst holding a full-time job.

Last weekend, I tendered an application to secure a place with a well-received 16-week intensive programming incubator programme to learn Java, JavaScript, Ruby and HTML and CSS. All practical knowledge, solo and team projects – with on-site training and teachers. Above all, one actively develops a portfolio to pitch to companies at a speed-dating session towards the end of the course.

I have the money to fork out, and fortunately I can take the risk as I have no financial baggage or relationship commitment. I see the real-value need to return to programming as a complimentary way to enhance my skillset, as it still involves IT – plus I have 8 year’s commercial experience and a strong educational background in IT anyway. Should I choose to part my dosh with the incubator programme course, I may secure a place for the mid-July cohort in two month’s time.

If that logic results in a TRUE statement, I pray for God’s will to secure a weekend job to help supplement a source of income, despite my reluctance to cough up more money for yet another course. A weekend job would help my CV for the sake of job prospects (i.e. employment gap), whilst securing ‘lost’ money towards a course).

Do I see myself as a Software Developer or DevOps guy? With the increasing rise of Cloud computing and web services, (i.e. Microsoft Azure, Amazon AWS, etc) and native apps for iOS and Android, I am willing to grow in my technical skillset, where I can apply my analytical and creative mindset.

If I do pursue this incubator course, it will severely dent the immediate path of this Kingdom-focus vision and it will limit my immediate job-hunt. However, during the 16-week course, we are also exposed to mobile app development, which is something that I have been craving for years. It’s also a subskill that is vital to this Kingdom-focus vision to show evidence in the form of a technical portfolio.

Perhaps the outward consequences of me being forced to let go of this self-proclaimed ‘prized job’ is what the LORD has been planning from day one. For me, I have peace to step out, despite not knowing what will happen tomorrow. However, I have acquired strong commercial work experience in recent years, compared to when I was badly unemployed.

I spent the whole of last weekend to further reflect upon my actions, and I still arrived at the same outcome, which is to leave and step onto the unknown. I even shared my intention with a trustworthy colleague and even he chimed that I was making a wise and sensible decision for my own health and future.

Curiously, my Dad is more worried for me than my Mum. But then, my Mum has a stronger faith in the LORD than my Dad. You can tell by how people grow in the LORD by their actions, words, lifestyle and attitudes.

The reality is… I can actually overachieve in my personal endeavours *without* this 16-week incubator programme. I already subscribe to Treehouse which covers popular programming languages (minus C/C++). They even have special categories to prepare oneself for business development.

As Treehouse is pre-recorded with full transcripts and downloadable videos, they also cover the latest revisions of programming languages, which I find is rare with modern MOOC (massive open online course) platforms.

With a little determination (and natural stubbornness), I can easily tally 24 projects for my personal portfolio, compared to the advertised 3 projects with this 4-month course, which also requires an additional 1 month for prep work before enrolling to the course (5-month lockdown). If I choose Treehouse, I also eliminate the daily 2-hour commute and travel expenses – thus I gain bonus time to pursue my personal development.

Treehouse for me is a cheaper and a wiser option, as I have more confidence in programmers from the United States than the Scottish education system. I don’t recall a Silicon Valley in Scotland – other than the people who make Grand Theft Auto.

At the end of the day, experience and evidence trumps certificates in the field of IT. However, I wish to pursue a couple of accreditations on Microsoft Server 2016 and Microsoft Azure, alongside the programming courses on Treehouse. I’ve always wanted to learn from the best in the field – it’s how I learn effectively. Besides, I’ve used Treehouse before and I know their quality and courses are top-notch. Plus, it would be cool to work through projects that utilise AR/VR (Augmented Reality/Virtual Reality).

In addition, should I secure a job – say after two months, I can transition to a mid to high salary role, due to strong commercial experience based on past IT roles.

However, should I choose the 16-week immersive programming course, then I am locked-in until November 2018 and I know from experience, there are close to no jobs during the Winter season, especially before Christmas.

So yeah, having decided already, I will be pumping my blood, sweat and tears over at Treehouse to upskill in software development and to learn cutting-edge technologies surrounding Operating Systems and networking.

Above all, I am acting out in total faith. Nothing has been guaranteed – no replacement job – no formal place with 16-week course (other than a to-be-scheduled interview) – nothing. Nada!

The basis for my reality check has mostly come from the LORD from a Desiring God article titled ‘You Must Disappoint Someone: How to Say No to Good Things’ and God’s Word from Mark 8:34-37. Curiously, these were revealed to me last Friday when I wanted to let go of this job.

God-willing, my last day at work will be on Thursday 14th June.

Surprisingly, my parents have been very empathic and understand the sheer battle that I face at work each day. I’m just determined to live sensibly and not do something stupid by committing a great sin against God – that’s all I can say.

Talk about the spiritual realms of this world…

…well, maybe next time.

In Christ,

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